Monday, December 29, 2003

Am I The Only One Not Sick?

I called my mother this morning and she's sick.

One of the designers at the jewelry store has been sick for a week.

My son has a little something. Sneezing and loose bowel movements.

My boss called me this evening as I was driving home from grocery shopping. She's sick.

So I'm not working tomorrow because she's sick and doesn't want to give it to me. Which is okay with me. It won't help my checking account balance but I have a free day. And she is paying me for Thursday which is a holiday.

Speaking of which.......I have absolutely no plans for New Years Eve. Guess I'll be spending it at home........again...........alone........with my son........who will spend the entire evening in his room watching dvd's..............

Sometimes being a single parent sucks..........like having no social life........

But....I guess home is the safest place to be on New Years Eve.

And I do have a bunch of Heineken in the frig........

I Might Have Gotten The Ex In Trouble.....

I left a message on the ex-boyfriends cell tonite. Something like.....call me or I'm going to eat your Christmas present.

So I get a call back. Caller id shows his cell number.

I answer and a female voice asks " Is __ there?"

And I say no. She says she has his cell phone and retrieved the message. She asks me if I'm his girlfriend. I say no, I'm his ex-girlfriend. I ask her why she has his cell. She says because they were supposed to go to the movies. She asks me if my name is ___. I say yes. She asks me when is the last time I saw him. I tell her I think the Sunday before Christmas. (But it could have been the previous Sunday...I'm not sure. He came over and watched football. I ran errands with my son and then we went to the beach. He was gone when we got home).

I asked her what her name was. She told me. I asked her to tell __ to come get his Christmas present before I eat it. And we hang up.

Do I care if I got him in trouble?

Absolutely not! If he leaves his cell with someone and she retrieves his messages it's his own damn fault.

Thursday, December 25, 2003

A Great Christmas.....

It's been a great Christmas!

I played Santa at 3:20 this morning and put my son's presents under the tree. He woke me up about 7:30 am to tell me Santa had been here.

We sat by the tree and opened presents. He was really excited to get the Pirates of the Caribbean dvd from his grandparents. I gave him the Indiana Jones dvd box set and the soundtrack from Spy Kids 3D and a Pokeman trading card game. Several weeks ago he got his BIG present from me - a new tv for his bedroom (the one he had died). He also got money from his aunt & uncle and grandparents. No doubt we will be at WalMart this weekend buying videos.

Then we ate breakfast and I took a shower. I put the new dvd/vcr player we got from my parents in his room. He started to watch Pirates then switched to Indiana Jones.

Then we got ready to head to the beach. We went to Salt Pond and it was crowded. Lots of other people decided to spend Christmas at the beach also. It was incredibly beautiful. Sunny the whole time. A monk seal was sleeping on the sand at the other end of the beach. Lots of people snorkeling and swimming. We stayed about 3 1/2 hours.

We both spoke with my sister and her husband on Maui this morning and I called my parents on Oahu to wish them Merry Christmas.

It was a very mellow Christmas. Undoubtably one of the best I've ever had.

But I'm glad it's almost over. It was a lot a work and last minute baking and wrapping.

I'm glad I turned down two invitations to spend Christmas with friends. I thanked each of them and explained that all year I've been planning to spend Christmas with just my son and that was what I was going to do.

And it was worth every minute.

Not too long ago my son came out of this bedroom and thanked me for a great Christmas.

Now I'm ready for New Years.........

Sunday, December 21, 2003

Bah Humbug.....

I'm ready for the holidays to be over already.

It's way too expensive.

And tiring.

I've been baking for three nights in a row. I made Chocolava (chocolate baklava) and Pecan Pie Bars. I just wrapped up packages to mail to my parents and my sister & her husband. Fortunately they just have to go to other islands but I'm not looking forward to going to the PO tomorrow morning. I mailed their main gifts earlier in the week.

I have to bake more tomorrow night so I have stuff for co-workers/bosses.

At least we were able to get to the beach both days this weekend.

Saturday we went to Salt Pond and it was clear and sunny. The water was like ice but we went in anyway. There was a monk seal on the beach but way on the other side. We stopped by Glass Beach on the way home and there was a monk seal sleeping on the sand there too.

Sunday we stayed closer to home and went to Baby Beach. It was also beautiful, clear and sunny.

I'm glad that I'm not traveling this Christmas. With the holiday being on Thursday that would be very inconvenient. After last Christmas my family decided that this year we would all stay home. If the theater is open on Christmas day I want to go see the Lord of the Rings movie. If not, then I guess we'll head to the beach if the weather is good.

The ex-boyfriend has been hanging around my house watching football this weekend.

Wow I'm tired. I'm heading to bed.

Wednesday, December 10, 2003

Here's How The Conversation Went....

I called the ex-boyfriends cell:

Ex: My love
Me: Hello?
Ex: Hello.
Me: I just walked past your car in the parking lot at Wal-Mart. Where are you?
Ex: Taking a nap.
Me: In your car?
Ex: Why didn't you come up to the car?
Me: Because I have to be at the airport in 10 minutes to pick up my son. I'm parked right down the aisle from you.
Ex: I'll be right there.
Me: Ok.
We both hang up.

Five minutes later I call his cell again and get voice mail. Did not leave a message.

One minute later I call him.

Ex: Hello.
Me: What's taking you so long? I'm right down the aisle from you in the parking lot.
Ex: I'm at home.
Me: What do you mean? Your car's right down the aisle from me.
Ex: I'll talk to you another day.
Me: Huh?
Ex: I'm seeing someone else.
Me: How long has this been going on?
Ex: Since the last time we were together.
Me: Is it the blonde I saw you talking to in the Big Save parking lot the night you didn't show up at my house to watch Monday night football?
Ex: No.
Me: Is it the brunette I saw you talking to when I was doing laundry a couple weeks ago?
Ex. No.
Me: It's someone else?
Ex: Yes.
Me: I guess I'll talk to you later.
Ex: Bye.

And I'm not even upset.

See, ever since the night he didn't show up at my house I've suspected he was seeing someone else. He hadn't stopped calling me but we hadn't been doing stuff together.

If he calls me now I don't think I'll answer the phone.

Sunday, December 07, 2003

I Don't Know How To Be Me...

You would think that because my son was in Honolulu for the weekend that I would be painting the town red.

But I don't know how to be single anymore. I've been a single parent for so long that when my son isn't with me I honestly don't know how to act.

From the time I got home Friday until about 3 PM today the only time I went outside was to open the front door to retrieve a package the mailman left on the doorstep.

How sad is that?

I didn't even get to the beach because the weather was so sucky all weekend. Cloudy and rainy.

And I hate doing things alone. Even on the rare occasion that I do go out I always like to be with someone when we go someplace instead of meeting them there. I have a difficult time walking into a restaurant/bar/etc. alone. I just don't feel comfortable. I'm always afraid that I'll be the first one there and will have to sit by myself until my friend(s) shows up. I just can't do it.

I wonder if there's a name for a phobia like that?

My son came home with two bronze medals he won. And he was really stoked about the Haunted Mansion Happy Meal toy he got. McDonald's here was out of them last week when he got a Happy Meal.

Before I picked up my son at the airport I went to Wal Mart. My parents are giving us a DVD/VCR Combo. I got one there and when we got home I wrapped it and put it under the tree. It's just not the same knowing what it is.

I also saw the ex-boyfriends BMW in the parking lot at Wal Mart. I need to post that story. But not tonight. I've got dishes to wash, teeth to brush and zzzzzzzzz's to catch.....

Friday, December 05, 2003

The Holidays...

Christmas is less than 3 weeks away. I used to like shopping but not any more. The only shopping I do these days is for groceries or online. Which means that my family is getting gift cards as presents this year. They can buy their own damn gifts.

The Ex...

The ex-boyfriend called me Monday night. He was in Honolulu. Then he called me again later. He was back here. Then he called me Wednesday night. He was on Maui. He asked me if I missed him. I told him that I did. Then he asked me if I loved him. I told him that I love him but I'm not in love with him. He said that wasn't good enough.

The Heartbreaker...

I've seen the heartbreaker a couple of times in the last month. Once in the parking lot at Safeway and once as he was going in the opposite direction while we were headed for the beach. I know he saw me both times. He still hasn't called me. Which means he isn't interested. Or.....he's so interested it scares him. Whatever. I need a man with balls enough to act on his desires. And it doesn't appear that his balls are big enough..........

The Weekend...

I dropped my son off at the airport this morning. He's going to Honolulu for Special Olympics. I pick him up Sunday afternoon. Which means I have the entire weekend to myself. It looks like it's going to be rainy all weekend so I guess I'll be raiding his movie library and watching videos.

Pray for some sun for me so I can go to the beach.

Tuesday, December 02, 2003

Ok, I'm feeling better. Just a sneeze now and then.

I broke down and bought a wreath for $9.99. What a deal. It smells wonderful. It's hanging on the front door.

Tomorrow I may start looking for a Christmas tree. If I don't get one soon there won't be any left. It's not like we can just go out and cut down our own.

I need to start baking so I have stuff to give co-workers this year. Gotta go make a grocery list...